Tori's Story: Beauty in the Uncertainty
“They looked up and saw a star
Shining in the east beyond them far,
And to the Earth it gave great light,
And so it continued both day and night.”
I LOVE Christmas. I love Christmas all the time, not only in December, which is why I’ve been listening to Christmas music since before Halloween (I’m that friend.) But I’m in awe of the Christmas story, and I feel like every year I learn and experience more that just causes my love to grow, which is why I wanted to share these lyrics from “The First Noel.”
Something pretty defining about me is that I can’t stand uncertainty. And that wasn’t a problem untilearlier this year. I had everything planned out at this same time last year: I had a good job, a good school, a good plan…it all made perfect sense, but it wasn’t right. And at the end of the day, I knew that it wasn’t right and I knew that I made my life look great so I could have something to cling onto for a certain future.
So I left all of my certainty to embrace what God most definitely is putting into place piece by piece, but He’s still not making everything what I’d like to call “certain,” or “predictable.” And as I get into places of being stuck worrying about the answers that I don’t have, I lose the beauty in the mundane.
Not only do I love Christmas, but I love looking at the stars. I think they’re beautiful and captivating and overwhelming, and I can’t even imagine what this one looked like…I can’t imagine how beautiful and captivating and overwhelming that it felt to follow it.
And the more that I’ve listened to this song (since October) the more I realized something: there’s not much detail. Go back and listen to the whole thing if you’d like, but the gist of it is that it tells the Christmas story and they followed the star. The end. And then I realized something else.
That star & the fact that it continued day and night was the only detail they needed.
So right now, that’s where my beauty comes from; it’s in the fact that our source of amazing, unending light is constant throughout the Earth. My beauty is in the simplicity of that. It’s the certainty that every day could be the best day, the worst day, the last day, the first day, because God knows how to radically change our lives when we least expect it, and maybe even in a way where we don’t notice it. My life is in no way, and in the best way, anything like that I could have imagined a year ago.
In any uncertainty, He’s making the most simple, humble stories to be one of the greatest stories we’ll ever tell.
Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. "